you're home

your emails motivate me every single day. i basically rely on it :)

but now, there's no longer a need to. you're back home safe and sound.

you have given up sailing, perhaps a shore job will suit you fine. you can't bear to be away from everyone, i know. i'm just so glad you're back. however, you're just not the same anymore. you no longer have that same smile and laughter. you are no longer that cheerful boy who never stops smiling. you're putting a front you want me to believe. but i know, its all just for show. its a show for me to stop worrying for you. seeing you smile genuinely is what i want the most. sigh, all i can do is look at you, wondering when will this ever end.

cheer up my little boy <3