sailor boy.

yes its tuesday and you're sailing off this friday at 8 am :(

i want to send you off at the same time i don't want to. i'm stuck.

perhaps i should ask you. i want to see you for the last time before you sail for fucking 6 months.

it has become a habit for me to call you every night. what will happened to me? perhaps i will write to you every night in substitute to the late night calls.

i don't want friday to come, i really don't. but i can't stop time, i can't control anything. i feel so hopeless, i need someone to pick me up.

i feeling so emotionless nowadays because of you. i'm so sensitive when it comes to you yknow? and because of that we wasted a lot of precious of time :'(

if only you know how i feel right now. i hope there's still time.